High IQ & panic at ideas? Mental illness or fear of my intelligence?

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June 16, 2019 / By Cammie
Question: People who know me think I am a normal, intelligent, fun friend, wife and mother. But actually I have some strange things going on! I was a member of MENSA aged 9 and my IQ rates me within the top 1% of the population. As a child I always had an anxious disposition, but I enjoyed success as a very high achiever. As a young adult, my untutored intelligence appeared to me to have an 'entity' of it's own - I would frantically write articles of a scientific or spiritual nature that were so profound that I didn't see how they could possibly have come from my intellect. I would suffer from panic attacks due to the insights and revelations I would make. I didn't fully appreciate my intelligence at that time and I put it down to an external force of some kind. The fear caused me to totally shut down my brain. From that time until now, I keep busy with my children and I have to engage my mind in menial/ idol activities. I have to watch dvds before sleeping, and although I yearn to write a book I am too afraid to use my creative brain in any way. If I fail to engage in this displacement activity, and I have a quiet moment to 'think', my brain races with ideas and I feel panicky. It is not apathy but genuine fear that is causing me this problem. I don't want to spend the rest of my life like this. Is this mental illness? Is it spirituality? Is it fear of my intelligence? Am I a nut? Please don't tell me to use my intelligence to resolve the issue, as obviously the whole point is that I am afraid to use my brain now : ) Does any one else experience this?
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Amalea Amalea | 4 days ago
First: don't pay too much attention to IQ: It is only a statistical tool that shows that your brain works almost 100% the same way of that of those who created the tests. You are not something like a Mental Superwoman. You have a bright mind, but nothing more. Second. Did your ideas ever created problems to you? Why do you panic if many ideas come to your mind? All those who created the grand stories of the past (King Arthur, Merlin, Romeo and Juliet, Troy, etc.) had a very creative mind like yours. There is no reason to fear. Third. Do write a book. Use your computer to write the ideas you have, and then find a way to put them in order. Don't set now a plan to publish that book: it's just to use your brain. Things will develop later.
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Amalea Originally Answered: Your views on mental illness and intelligence?
There is no connection between intelligence and psychiatric disorders. Any psychiatrist will tell you that. There are geniuses and mentally retarded people with mental illness. The type of disorder is not relevant.

Wade Wade
Most mental illnesses correlate with a LOWER IQ, not a higher one. This is on AVERAGE though, and you can't say anything at all about the individual you are asking about, because people of all IQ's can suffer the various mental illnesses. Bipolar disorder does not correlate with IQ whatsoever based on what I have read. The people with the highest IQ's are less likely to have problems with mental illness, and I would guess that is because they learn to cope more effectively with life's adversities and maybe because they are intelligent, they face, on average, fewer serious life adversities (stressors) that could bring on an episode of serious mental illness (things like divorce, death of child, death of spouse, bankruptcy, etc). The link you hear about is really the link between CREATIVITY and mental illness - that is, bipolar disorder specifically. That link has been remarked upon by psychiatrists for a long time & there is some research to back that up. The "mad geniuses" were mostly in the creative arts. And science and math do require much creativity besides.
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Royle Royle
I know about the connection between a stream of exciting spiritual ideas and anxiety, but it is so they should be interrelated, because some of the truths are so profound and incredible that they take some getting used to. I mean if we were not in the midst of a chain of this intuitive process (which thinks itself), which is a revelation of itself, we would probably have some time believing it. I have had this experience many times, so much so that I doubt whether the person doing menial activities and playing trivial games and quizzes, is the same as the thinker, the self-active thought. You just have to remember to combine the two, that they are the same person, or rather the ego dissolves when the thought/spirit begins. Anxiety begins and ends with the ego. From the social construct, there probably is little difference between genius and insanity.
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Morley Morley
Try not to be afraid. Write a book. No one but you has to read it at the end of the day. If you don't want others to see your work, you do not have to let them. In fact truecrypt can go a long way to stopping prying eyes! Find a friend (maybe with in MENSA) who would be willing to read your work. Don't be afraid to just curl up on the sofa and watch a film. Nothing wrong with it. Create some time for yourself aside from family/kids to just write, create, sing what ever you want to do. It doesn't matter what it is, just do it. If you don't like it throw it away. As a software programmer, people have to see my work all the time, I also see the work of others all the time. We bounce ideas off of each other until we have found what we agree to be the best way of doing something. You won't come up with something 100% perfect, no matter who you are, but when you show others your work and listen to them, you can come damn close. Best of luck, start of slow and remember to be you.
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Kegan Kegan
I don't think that you have anything different from any of us out there who suffer anxiety problems.I have had these problems since childhood and from what you say so have you.You need to get your GP to refer you to a councillor,most surgeries have a mental health councillor and you need to talk to a professional about your problems and how to tackle them.Good Luck
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Kegan Originally Answered: Im 16 do i have a mental illness?
Yes, you do. Your self-esteem is practically non-existent, it sounds as though you also have bad anxiety issues, and possibly severe depression leading to delusions. You should definitely, definitely see a counselor (at school, or otherwise), a therapist, or a doctor. If you're ever having thoughts of hurting yourself, you need to tell a parent or a trusted adult. If they don't take you seriously, call 911 and ask for an ambulance. You need to get help, living the way you are is no way to live. You are beautiful, I assure you. If you ever need to talk to someone, you can send me a message at http://houseyloaf.tumblr.com/ Body positive blogs : http://stophatingyourbody.tumblr.com/ http://gtfothinspo.tumblr.com/

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